But God knew. He knew Stephen would call. He knew I’d screen the call. He knew that in just a few days my world would be rocked. And God stayed the same through it all. The same God I was singing praise to July 25, 2013 at 7:20pm was the same God who met me in the shock I felt on July 29, 2013 at 7am and the same God who carries me through my grief even still.
The feeling of accomplishment as those stickers filled in the spaces, whether it be for attendance, memorization, or something else, made me feel so accomplished. Give me all of those gold stars!!!! That shiny gold star was the goal for so many of us during the elementary years. As an adult I got a gold star I didn’t want. I didn’t know there was a gold star that wasn’t shiny & positive. I didn’t know that a gold star could carry the weight of grief instead of accomplishment.