So Glad You're Here...Why Am I Here?

Hi! I’m so glad you stopped by! I used to blog when blogging was new and trendy; but then life happened and I lost my voice. Now I’m back, and I’d love to share a little bit about why I’m here (at least as much as I know myself!!)

A little over a year ago I was sitting in church on a Wednesday night. My pastor was preaching on Abraham and, quite honestly, I was prepared to check out mentally. Instead, God spoke loud and clear to me. But before I get to what He said, let me explain some things.

I’m a pastor’s wife and a stay-at-home-mom to a boy (6) and a girl (18 mo). Had you asked 18 year old me my plans, neither of these identities were on the list. Instead, I was going to get my degree in psychology and then pursue a Master’s in either child psychology or women’s ministry. I had no real interest in getting married, and kids, if I had any at all, would be adopted when I was in my late 30’s or early 40’s. God has a fun sense of humor you guys! However, the one desire and dream that has never shifted is the call to write a book and be a Christian speaker.

That dream is a bit odd though. Christian culture often implies (I believe unintentionally) that people, especially women, shouldn’t actively pursue being seen and noticed as a speaker. It seems like it’s viewed as something that just “happens” if it’s the “Lord’s will".” So for many years, I have waited and prayed for it to “happen.” (It hasn’t.) Mainstream culture on the other hand implies that everyone should pursue their dreams regardless of any obstacles. Working hard and showing grit and drive will allow you to work your way up the ladder and be seen! Theoretically this is a great plan. However, while I was busy working hard and showing grit, I met the man of my dreams and we built a life together in ministry. Was I just supposed to say, “no thanks” and hope he waited around until I was happy on my rung of the ladder?

That struggle brings us back to a year ago. For almost 6 years I had told my husband, Andy, that I wanted to write a book on hospitality. I’m SO passionate about this topic and I see it as a conversation that is talked about in pieces but isn’t really understood. He was totally on board, but I did nothing of substance. As I sat in the sanctuary August 2017, my daughter was an infant; we had moved from TN to FL, and I felt like I was drowning in finding my “place.” But there I sat, diligently taking sermon notes.

As I’m sitting in church, listening to the message, God spoke loud and clear to my heart and said, “You can either choose to obey and start acting on this dream I have given you, or you can dig in your heels and be idle and I will never bless it.” WHOA! Suddenly, I’m listening quite intently. I want God’s blessing! However it looks, I want to choose His blessing over fear. In my notes, I wrote down this sentence:

Faith rarely involves easy choices.

So here I am. Over the past year I have taken both baby steps and giant strides to pursue the dream God placed in me years ago! It is way out of my comfort zone, yet thrilling. I am in the process of actually writing my book, and now I’m working on creating a space in the blogosphere to encourage authenticity and hospitality. I truly have zero idea where this journey is taking me. However, I know that as I choose to obey God’s leading, it’ll be an adventure! I’d love for you to come along for the ride, comment on the things that encourage or confuse you, and let’s have fun! Only one requirement though - #authenticselvesonly